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prom was good. wish my special someone was there

i won a $50 gift card to BestBuy as a door prize
yay imma get me some CD's

w00t.

i got a promotion at my job. 3rd key. i'm now able to open and close the store. yayerz. more hours and more $$$

my mother is better. she's kinda getting depressed. stupid morphine got her talkin crazy. but people tell me not to take it personally when she stuff to me. =\

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hmmm what to write. well. my mother is ,remarkably, looking good. she smiles and laughes like never before. i used to think she was just an old fogy being tired all the time but now i know that it's because of the low blood count. i feel bad for being mad at her when she went to sleep early.

SPring Break!!!!1 is almost here! yay! imma go see Jaime! for a whole week!!!!!! yay!! then ill meet all his freinds and....*gulp* family.....whoa.
yea i'm kinda glad it's not time yet to go! lol :) i'm not ready yet. but hopefully in a week id have prepared myself for that.

sign up on MySpace.com  it's where all the cool ppl go....i guess

I'm so frustrated! i just want out. i want to be locked up inside a small box and die!!! I HATE SCHOOL!!! i'm so behind on everything and my grades are showing it! since i missed so much school b/c of y grandma's funeral i'm still behind. not only am i behind at school but at work as well. i've called in so many times i think they might fire me if i do call in one more time! my mother recently is in te hospital becase she has low blood count. they gave her 4 pints of blood!!!  she seems more energized but now those docters seem to have found a tumor in her kidney. yesterday they finished telling me that it spread to her lung and she might have lung cancer. thoughts of my religoin flow into my mind because YES, I'M DOUBTING HIM! my mom and her boyfriend keep saying that it's because of God that she has this. and that He want's it this way. BAH! iono what to think right now. i just want to die. so many things have happened to her i just don't know what to think of this "god".

i just need a hug.

i need jaime here, by my side, telling me it's going to be ok.

i need my grandma.

i need my mom.

i need help.

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i got a belly piercing!! yayerz! i got this bunny only mine has a little pink rienstone for an eye. :)

i'm so excited about it. i got it yesterday as an early bday present for myself! plus it brought a nice big smile on my face today....all day. which i haven't smiled in a while. on thursday my grandma died. a bunch of her family came down from mexico to attend the funeral. her family is a group on totally and honest to God nice people. these people helped me see a different side to mexicans...the nicer side. all they did was compliment me on how nice i was and sweet. they made me blush so much! :) ive never been happier being around so much family. it was truly beautiful! i love being surrounded by family. i've never acutally been to a funeral before and man, let me tell you. it was a sad sad saD! event. i hope i dont have to go through another one for a long while. =\ . i cried so much. and at the most oddest moments. at her wake when i saw her body...it didnt look much like her. i thought to myself "that's not her. my grandma had warm loving hands". she was so cold. my poor grandpa tryied to be strong but when he saw them take her casket to the car to drive to the muselium...he broke down, and so did i.

but enough with the sad moments. my birthday is tomorrow. idunno what imma do. it doesn't feel like its my birthday. in fact to tell you the truth, my bday has been the LAST thing on my mind.

in memory of Josefina Mariscal Amaro

MCR--"The Ghost Of You"

I never said I'd lie and wait forever
if I died we'd be together
I can't always just forget her
but she could try

at the end of the world
or the last thing I see
you are
never coming home
never coming home
could I? should I?
and all the things that you never ever told me
and all the smiles that are ever ever....

ever...